Imperfect World

As with  other human beings, I have a dose of my personal frustrations, injustices, powerlessness and failures. My life has never been perfect- as everybody is, I supposed. Good for those who were born with riches and overflowing blessings. But with most of us, the painful experience is truly nerve wrecking. It has cause sleepless nights, gallons of tears and tremendous horror.

For so many times, I have been repeatedly asking God why such experience have to happen. Up to this point, answers never came. The mystery remains unsolved, no matter how hard I try to connect the puzzle nothing make sense.

I wish I was never born so that I would have never cared. I was totally unprepared of life, and I blamed my mentors/ parents for this inadequacy. I feel unloved, unworthy and inadequate even if this is contrary to what my credentials are showing. I just think and feel that I do not belong to any place on Earth. I tried to the best of my abilities to fit in. But it's not working. I should probably try even harder.



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