A mix-up of Life and Forces
As a Catholic I find the Holy rosary fascinating. It gives me a sense of confidence and strength whenever I need to. It’s a bead symbolizing humanity, human nature, community, environment, universe and everything else. I find joy carrying one in my bag. I wear it sometimes but not so often. I keep it on my palms and hold into it whenever I am weary and confused. It’s interesting to note how my faith is restored whenever I do that. It may be a placebo effect, a psychological factor to that kind; but for me the effect is surreal. As a person who overanalyzes events I find the World confusing and chaotic. I wonder how I was able to survive the agony of living. But it would be unfair to only see the bad things. I have also experienced happiness and inner peace at some point. For the most part anxiousness, bitterness and weakness envelopes my soul. This might sound a surprise to some people who sees me as strong person. But in fact I am very unstable with a growing inner turmoil. A me...